A Feeling

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This poem was written in February 2011 and is one of the only poems I’ve written in (roughly) free verse.

It’s a feeling
inside me;
Intuition –
You can’t see.

But I feel it;
It controls me –
This feeling
In me.

It’s abstract;
It’s in the air;
It’s the unseen –
But it’s there!

It’s an instinct –
Intangible;
I can’t believe it;
It’s incredible.

How do I tell you?
What can I say?
It’s hard to divine
Why I feel this way.

But it’s floating, floating;
I feel it near;
My heart tells me
It’s here! It’s here!

Just a feeling;
Just abstract;
Just intangible;
Just an instinct;
Just my intuition;
It’s crazy, I know.
But it’s true.

I feel it;
It’s near.
I feel it;
It’s here!

It’s just a feeling I feel,
But it’s real.

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Books and Candy

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Another food/book tag, this time from Musings From Neville’s Navel.

1. Apples
Ah, healthy food. It is deep, meaningful, and probably won a lot of awards but, um, it isn’t really your thing.

The Bell Jar, by Sylvia Plath is a definitely a well written book but, as well as being depressing, I couldn’t relate to it and it didn’t touch me in any lasting way.

2. Milk Chocolate
This is a book that you’d recommend to absolutely EVERYONE.

I wouldn’t usually recommend a book to EVERYONE. Everyone is so different! But if I had to choose, I’d go with The Book Thief because it’s one of my favorite books that isn’t a thousand pages long. If you like books more action packed, try The Scarlet Pimpernel.

3. Black Jellybeans
Why do these exist?

Oh, gosh. I don’t want to be mean. But honestly, Danielle Steel’s 44 Charles Street read like a first or second draft. It needs some major revision.

4. Chocolate Kisses
Aw, this novel had the best romance.

The Scarlet Pimpernel. Percy and Marguerite’s relationship is beautiful, the way they learned to understand each other and fell in love a second time.

5. Gummy spiders
Eek! You made sure to check under your bed every night for a week after reading this scary one.

And Then There Were None is rather unsettling. It’s not so scary like the description above, though. Now, Sherlock Holmes’ mystery The Adventure of the Speckled Band did give me a couple nervous nights after reading it, as did The Valley of Fear. I was about twelve, then.

6. Jumbo Lollipop
This took you forever to get through but hey! You did it!

Victor Hugo’s Les Miserables is 1000+ pages with small print and it includes, infamously, a chapter all about the sewers of Paris. But I read it and it was totally worth it.

7. Cotton candy
Admit it: You loved this when you were younger. (You probably still do) Think: children’s or MG fiction.

I loved Black Beauty, both when I read it at eight years old and when I retread it at thirteen. I’ve always loved horses.

 

What are your gummy spiders? Feel free to do this tag on your own blog!

The Chocolate Book Tag

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I was searching for fun tags and found one here. Chocolate? Books? Yes, please!

1) Dark chocolate: a book that covers a dark topic

Animal Farm is dystopian and painfully hopeless. A lot of us have studied this in school but if you haven’t read it, it’s about how a dictatorship slowly and surely gains absolute power.

2. White chocolate: your favourite lighthearted/humorous read

I like to read the Percy Jackson books. While they might not always be called “lighthearted”, as Middle grade, they’re significantly less dark compared to many other fantasy novels, and they’re definitely humorous! The modern culture references are fun to find.

3. Milk chocolate: a book with a lot of hype that you’re dying to read

I’d like to read The Mortal Instruments series and something by Rainbow Rowell. But all in all, I’m not dying too much for any book right now.

4. Chocolate with a caramel centre: a book that makes you feel all gooey in the middle while you read it

Maybe, A Little Princess, by France’s Hodgson Burnett. It’s a sweet story.

5. Wafer free kit kat: a book that has surprised you lately

Murder on the Orient Express, by Agatha Christie. I should have expected a clever solution to the mystery and I did. Still, I couldn’t help feeling mind blown at the end.

6) Snickers: a book you are going nuts about

I love The Book Thief. I read and then reread it last year and maybe I’ll read it again this year. Seriously, I could read it over and over.

7. Hot chocolate with cream and marshmallows: a book that you would turn to for a comfort read

Pride and Prejudice. It’s great for laughs, romantic, all around quite happy, and never boring. I look to this book for an example of good pacing.

 

That gooey question was hard. I should read more gooey-fying books! Any recommendations?

My Outlandish Dream

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I wrote this poem a couple years ago but it remains “close to my heart (or some similar, less sentimental expression).

(P. S. Today is Aragorn’s birthday! 🙂 Ahem.)

I wish that I was in a fairytale
And lived out adventures rare.
Whenever I read those fairytales
I wish that I were there!

A life laden with adventures –
That’s what my heart craves;
Living in wildernesses,
Creeping through dungeons and caves,

Climbing up mountains and towers,
Stealing through dragons’ lairs,
Wading through marshes and rivers,
Running up endless stairs,

Fleeing from all sorts of danger,
Bravely battling foes,
Trudging through forests and jungles,
Crawling through tunnels and holes.

I know that these things sound outlandish –
A dreary life so – who would choose?
A stable life safe in a home
Is such a misfortune to lose.

Then why does my heart so cry out?
And these things I still want to be?
Is it merely a wild, childish dream?
Will my wishes hold true to me?

The Ultimate Book Tag

I found this tag on Musings From Neville’s Navel. Ultimate book tag? Yeah, it caught my eye.

1. Do you get sick while reading in the car?

No. But I don’t often read there because I like to look at the scenery and it can be pretty dark there.

2. Which author’s writing style is completely unique to you and why?

Markus Zusak has a very unique, poetic, and distinguishable style. Sigh. It’s so beautiful.

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3. The Harry Potter series or the Twilight Saga? Give three points to defend your answer.

I haven’t read either series so I’m not qualified to say.

4. Do you carry a book bag? If so, what’s in it? (Besides books!)

No. I think I’m significantly less bookish compared to a lot of other bookworms.

5. Do you smell your books?

Not really. When they’re really new and smooth with lovely covers, I might, just because I’m so in love with the book, but not in general.

6. Books with or without illustrations?

I prefer no illustrations, but there are always exceptions.

7. What book did you love while reading but discovered later that it wasn’t quality writing?

I won’t say it’s not quality writing but the Narnia books definitely don’t have the same magic they had for me three years ago. I find myself getting bored and feeling patronised and the racist and sexist undertones are a little troubling.

8. Do you have any funny stories involving books from your childhood? Please share!

This might not really be funny but I used to always get dreams about libraries. I reckon it meant I wanted to go to one so badly, because after all I *did*.

 

9. What is the thinnest book on your shelves?

The Machine Stops, by E. M. Forster. It’s a book with only two short stories. I love that cover.

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10. What is the thickest book on your shelves?

Novel? If so, The Pilgrim’s Progress. If it’s just any book, then it’s my French for Fluency textbook.

11. Do you write as well as read? Do you see yourself as an author in the future?

Definitely. I write and I would love to get published in future.

12. When did you get into reading?

I remember reading when I was five (I was trying to read a novel – Madeleine Takes Command!) but I may have begun earlier. Probably, if I was already trying novels.

13. What is your favorite classic book?

I love Les Miserables. A Tale of Two Cities and The Count of Monte Cristo are amazing too.

14. In school, was your best subject Language Arts/English?

It was religious studies. English/Literature came second, though.

15. If you were given a book as a present that you had read before and hated… what would you do?

I’d say thank you then donate it to the library in the near future.

16. What is a lesser-known series that you know of that is similar to Harry Potter or The Hunger Games?

Don’t know any.

17. Besides rambling, what is a bad habit you always have while blogging?

“Besides rambling” … I guess most bloggers ramble? 🙂

I use too many overused words.

18. What is your favorite word?

“Haunted”, “bliss”, “cascade”, “shiver”, and “crimson”

19. Are you a nerd, dork, or dweeb? Or all of the above?

Probably a bit of all of them!

20. Vampires or fairies? Why?

I prefer vampires because there’s something fascinating about their danger and complexity. Fairies can be as dangerous but I haven’t read any stories of them that quite match the vampires.

21. Shapeshifters or angels? Why?

Shapeshifters. Absolutely. I have always thought they were THE coolest thing and I have two shapeshifter stories of my own.

22. Spirits or werewolves? Why?

Werewolves. Vitto what I said about shape shifters.

23. Zombies or vampires?

Vampires.

24. Love triangle or forbidden love?

I prefer forbidden love. I don’t mind love triangles if they’re more one sided (one person likes another person who likes another person, or variations thereof) but if one person is leading on two people at once? No. It’s not a deal breaker for me but I don’t like it.

25. Full on romance books or action-packed with a few love scenes mixed in?

You know, I don’t normally like action packed books, unless they are done really well. My favorite parts are always character arcs and character relationships (doesn’t have to be romantic) and beautiful writing is always a plus. However, I don’t like books too mushy and I prefer not to have love triangles. So I have to say, I’m divided here.

 

Feel free to fill out this tag on your own blog! And what is your favorite word(s)?

Five Favorite Love Songs

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Since today’s Valentine’s Day, I thought I’d write a post on some of my favorite love songs.

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1. Time and Confusion – Anberlin

This song is so sweet. And it’s Anberlin – what more could you want? 🙂

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2. Enough to Let Me Go – Switchfoot

Singer Jon Foreman said he wrote the song as a response to a lot of love songs he would hear. They were all about a sort of selfish love – like “Baby, I want you” “Say you love me”. But true love is about letting go.

I’m not qualified to comment about popular music but I couldn’t agree more about the nature of true love. This song is a beautiful testament to that and I love the instrumentation, especially the baseline. 🙂 I could listen to it over and over.

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3. The Best of You and Me – Number One Gun

For something more melancholic, try The Best of You and Me. The melody is beautiful and the words haunting. (I also love Number One Gun’s Pretend. It reminds me of one of the heroes from my dystopian trilogy.)

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4. A Little More – Skillet

I’m not normally a Skillet fan, but I do love A Little More. “Faith will bring a way to the impossible” and “Love can take a little more” are some of my favorite lines ever.

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5. Hold Us Together – Matt Maher

This might have been written as a love song from God, but it also applies to romantic love. Either way, it’s still a love song and presents a view of love both realistic and idealistic at once.

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Bonus: Anberlin’s Orpheum captures perfectly the intoxication of falling in love.

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What are some of your favorite love songs? I’ll listen to them if they’re available! And have a happy Valentine’s Day!

Lyric Medley Tag

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I am so late for this. Never mind. I’ve been kind of busy with school – I mean, it’s been great and I’m really happy to be going there, but I can’t exactly stalk the blogosphere like I used to … 🙂 Anyway, I was tagged by Heather at Sometimes I’m a Story, for this Lyric Medley Tag. In other words, this is soooo awesome. I’m up for anything to do with music. 🙂

The rules:

Thank and link back to the person who tagged you.
Make a collage that represents your taste in music to go along with your tag post.

List a song for each of the 10 questions below (or make up your own!) and include your favorite lyrics from that song, if you’d like. If you want to explain why you chose that song, that’s cool too – go crazy with it!
Tag at least 5 bloggers

Okay, so I’ll *try* not to choose all Anberlin songs …

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A song that describes me perfectly – Modern Age by Anberlin. This song just speaks to me so much.

Don’t we all want to belong?
And don’t we all write our own song?
Let our silence break tonight.
Don’t we all know right from wrong?
And don’t we all want to be loved?
Let our silence break tonight.

And

Come now, elusive sigh
Open up their eyes to see
So many of us are just the same as you
Have we all hid? Have we all hid ourselves from friends?

The happiest song I know – Hello Hurricane by Switchfoot. It’s about an intrepid spirit.

Hello hurricane, you’re not enough
Hello hurricane, you can’t silence my love
I’ve got doors and windows boarded up
And all your dead end fury’s not enough
You can’t silence my love

A song about donuts – So In Love, by Jeremy Camp. Nah, I’m just kidding.

I am so in love with you (donuts)
There’s nothing else I choose
You’ve stolen my heart, yes,
I’m all for you now

A song that proves how I am loved  – Lie To Me (Denial) by RED.

Lie to me
You can feel that this love was never real
Walk away
You can learn to love again

Lie to me
Watch me bleed
I’ll still be here when you see
You’re not alone
You don’t have to run again
Leave me in denial

A song of origin – City of Angels, by 30 Seconds to Mars. It’s about moving to LA and finding a home in there. That was the closest I could think of and I do love the song.

Lost in the city of angels
Down in the comfort of strangers
I found myself in the fire burned hills
In the land of a billion lights

And

All my life, I was never there
Just a ghost running scared

A song about human decency – People Help The People, by Cherry Ghost, covered by Birdy.

God knows what is hiding in those weak and drunken hearts
Guess he kissed the girls and made them cry
Those hard-faced queens of misadventure
God knows what is hiding in those weak and sunken lives
Fiery throngs of muted angels
Giving love but getting nothing back, oh

People help the people
And if you’re homesick
give me your hand and I’ll hold it
People help the people

A song about a story – Wonderland, by Taylor Swift, was inspired by Alice in Wonderland.

I reached for you but you were gone
I knew I had to go back home
You search the world for something else to make you feel like what we had
And in the end in wonderland we both went mad.

And

We found wonderland
You and I got lost in it
And we pretended it could last forever

An I can’t even song – Uncanny, by Anberlin. I used to listen to that song on repeat. It is amazing.

Trains to Tokyo,
Staring out windows,
A place we’ve never been
While soundtracks play in backgrounds
To the stories of our lives
Non-fiction, oh envision,
if we never met and what we missed
And never really learned
Pacific Standard Time
Oh they love those American boys.

Anywhere say anywhere
As long as I’m with you
Anything, ask anything
We’ll watch the world go by
Anywhere, say anywhere
As long as I’m with you
Anything, ask anything
We’ll watch the world

A song my father plays on the guitar – Back In Black, by ACDC. He always does that beginning riff.

A song of hope – Miracles, by Coldplay. It’s a great song but it’s even better when you listen to it after watching Unbroken. It makes it so bittersweet and amazing that it’s almost painful.

From up above I heard
The angels sing to me these words.
And sometimes in your eyes
I see the beauty in the world

Sometimes the stars decide
To reflect in puddles in the dirt.
When I look in your eyes
I forget all about what hurts.

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I’m not going to make a collage but I think I’ve got quite a good idea of what kind of music I like. I tend to prefer slower, more ballad-like songs, with minor chords and a melancholic/bittersweet feel and words. I think you can call those rock ballads? … or alternative rock ballads.

I tag Imogen, Ashana Lian, Jamie, Engie, and Erin.

The Heroine Book Tag

I was thinking, I probably haven’t read enough books to be doing all these tags. But then, I thought, I’m only going to get busier in future, when I get a job and go to college and publish books and do other such adultish things. So now’s as good a time as any to do all the tags.

I found this one over at Musings From Neville’s Navel (which you should check out if you haven’t already cause Engie is seriously awesome).

Which heroine would you trade places with?

imageThis was probably the hardest question. I’m going to go with Annabeth Chase (Percy Jackson and the Olympians and Heroes of Olympus). Why? Because I’d love to see Greek mythology come to life. Centaurs! Dryads! Argus! How could I pass up the opportunity to stay at Camp Half Blood, even if it is dangerous? And Percy is cool. 🙂

Which heroine would you push off a cliff while hoping that there are some jagged rocks at the bottom?

I’ve never wanted to do that to any heroine and I sure hope I never do. But okay. Let’s talk about heroines I didn’t like so much, cliffs aside. Hazel Grace Lancaster from The Fault in Our Stars was okay and I understand she was going through a lot. But I still think she was terrible to her parents.

Also, I didn’t really like Piper from The Lost Hero, because she was boring (for a POV character, at least), a Mary Sue, and overly dramatic for my liking.

A heroine you couldn’t care less about? (They’re so bland that they don’t even trigger the hate in you.)

I found Mara from Messenger of Fear a bland character. I can’t blame her though; she does have amnesia.

A heroine you thought you wouldn’t like but ended up liking, and vice versa?

This one’s hard because I don’t usually go into books expecting I will like or dislike someone. I suppose this could count: I didn’t use to like Annabeth. Over time, she grew on me, but I still didn’t care much for her, until The Lost Hero when she appeared and I was thinking, “Why can’t she be in this story more? (sigh)”

A side heroine who is much more interesting than the main heroine?

I’m not sure she counts as a heroine but I am interested in Johanna Mason’s (The Hunger Games) story. I came to love Katniss, but we already know everything in her head. Johanna is spunky and sarcastic and deeply hurt and she gets little airtime in the trilogy.

Which heroine would you want as your friend?

I want to be friends with all the heroines from The Lunar Chronicles.

Image credit to Lierymell on DeviantArt
Image credit to Lierymell on DeviantArt

Cinder and I can commiserate with each other over our cargo pants and messy hair. Cress and I can pretend to be famous actresses and fan girl over Thorne. Haha. Just kidding. But seriously, they are all awesome people and it would be a blast.

Which heroine do you wish would just CHOOSE between the guys/girls in her little love triangle?

Celaena Sardothien from Throne of Glass. Right now, as I’ve only read book one, it’s okay. But there are going to be SIX books! Please don’t tell me she’ll be going back and forth between guys for all of them. I don’t mind love triangles, but I prefer them in small doses. So, Celaena, please make up your mind at the earliest opportunity. Preferably book two. Hint: You might want to choose Chaol. You’re welcome.

A “bad girl” heroine?

I was gonna say Celaena but I’m trying to mix things up so I’m going to go for Cadence Sinclair Eastman (We Were Liars). I know a lot of people dislike her for being boring or whiny or selfish. I totally understand that. She’s not your typical heroine – she’s a drug addict, she’s selfish, and who knows what else. I’m not sure I really like her but I think she’s fascinating.

A “good girl” heroine?

Shaylinn from Jill Williamson’s Safe Lands series.

Your favorite heroine of them all? (If you can’t choose, pick your top three.)

I would have been stumped by such a question but I recently finished The Daughter of Smoke and Bone trilogy and I love Liraz. I love her fire and fury and her heart under it all. I’ve said it before how hard I find it to relate to female characters, but that was never the case with her. 🙂 Of course, maybe it’s a little troubling that I relate to an embittered soldier who marks her kills on her fingers …

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Who is one heroine you love?